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Warning, a super long post ahead. Read only if you've the time, lol.
I'm supposed to send my picture and introduction for the Public Performance's programme list (节目表) to Ivan (Ex-President of CO). And I'm super bothered and frustrated with it. Firstly, I can't seem to find a nice picture of myself. It is either not nice or the picture is slanted. Secondly, I do not know how to photoshop. I wished I had LC with me when I needed her. :( That woman rocks the most when it comes to these type of things! But thank god, the problem was solved, by my dearest Jas Tan. :) Thirdly, I do not know what I can/should/ought/have/need to write for introduction. Not as if I've lots of good testimonials or awards, but still it's difficult. I think I'm getting too stressed up, no thanks to common tests. Omgwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad, I really really really want to do well for this CT. My msn is screwed up. I keep signing in and out till Uncle Peter msned me and told me he is going to block me. :S Lol, obviously he was kidding lah!

I also think I'm suffering from compulsive shopping disorder again. I just added 10 pieces to my wardrobe within 4 days. :S I need to start saving up soon!


I just had a good talk with daddy. It has been quite some time since both of us had the time to sit down, with a cup of hot chocolate (For him, obviously coffee! Hehe!) and have a decent talk. And all of a sudden, I'm a little overwhelmed with his affection. I mean I know how much he loves me and this family all along but it is that kind of familiar feeling that makes me very comfortable with the surrounding at that point of time. I feel as though I can tell him everything in the world and share with him every single little bit of my life. And I can tell you, I secretly wished that our talk would just continue, till next morning, till forever.

My dad is not the most admirable person in my life. And he is definitely not the most perfect father or husband but he is a man who loves his family tonnes & tonnes & tonnes. My dad is one of the nicest person in the world- I have never heard him said anything mean/sarcastic/racist/selfish. He, who is always immaculately dressed, is the one who taught me manners and etiquette. He is the person who loves me the most, ever. He is my loving father who calls me almost daily just to ask, "What are you doing, baby?" His love for me shows in his eyes, his expressions, his face and his actions everytime he speaks of the fond memories of me when I was young. And he is definitely one of the biggest reason why I had so many wonderful childhood memories. Not just his love for me, touches my soul within. But his love for my mum, my brother and his whole family. :) I feel lousy for the times I took my dad for granted, for the times I was rude to him, for the times I refused to pick up his calls, for the times when I haven't been understanding to him and for the many times that I sided with my mum. As much as I do not treat him with the due respect he deserves, my dad is, in every aspect, the most tolerant to me.

Not as if he will see this but I just want to say I love you, my beloved dad. I love you very much.


Sometimes I wish to see the world simply and plainly. You know, just live life not caring about change, the past, indifference, all that. Just living. Living simply day to day. Being content at the simple things, being okay with everything, not questioning and wishing, hoping at all. But then again, we humans always have something to complain about. It all boils down to choices. Your future and life is determined by the choices you make. Perhaps, a choice to sacrifice/give up would do me good. But strangely no matter how much it pains to think of memories, we can't seem to let go of them. Well, at least I can't. You don't ever forget things. It just takes a while for you to remember. And perhaps a lifetime, you'd never know.


Anyway, public performance is on 13th January 2008 at Singapore Conference Hall. People, please come and watch okay, if not see me also can! :)
And Jasper, as if you would want to come all the way just to see me perform. Actually you want to see Ms xxx xxxxx right! :) Gotcha!


ENCHANTED
You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close togehter

And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching
That famous happy and
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching
That famous hapyp end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...



So close to reaching, but still so far. ):
Nights world.