Monday, February 4, 2008 1:44 AM
I remember, how your eyes revealed your hidden feelings and emotions so easily read by me.
I hope she knows this as well. I remember, how well you disguised them, but through all the facades, I still see.
I hope she can tell. I remember, the sadness lurking behind your smiles, and we both know something's out of place.
I hope she's truly the missing puzzle in your life. I remember, all your problems, fears and things that are unrevealed by your face.
I hope she listens and shares all your ups and downs. I remember, how I sensed something is wrong, yet you continued persisting that you were very fine.
I hope she keeps you safe. I remember, how we tried to give our best but yet we still felt so distant away from each other.
I hope she'll manage to find her way into your very much guarded heart. I remember how I used to watch Arsenal match religiously just because I wanted to update you your favourite club’s score line.
I hope she understands how much soccer means to you. I remember, all the things I did unconsciously, hurt you and caused you so much pain.
I hope she knows all these and handles your heart well.I feel that there is a need to blog about these, because after so long I think I still owe you two words which I didn't had a chance to let you know. Thank you. You taught me how to long unselfishly and be stronger. I'm no longer the little girl you knew 2 years ago and I've grown up. And no matter what, I still want you to be the happiest. I thank you for all memories because I know all these memories would make me smile to myself even after 50 years. I'll hold them close to my heart and full stop. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. :)
Anyway, Friday was our last official tutorial for year 2. The worst thing is I didn't even realised. It wasn't until Jane reminded me, I thought we still have a lot of time, keep thinking times will never change and we'll never grow up. ): And this time, it is not just parting with classmates, but with my dearest woman, JASMINE LIN. God knows how much I rely on her. She is my first and best friend in poly. I can't imagine how days would be like without her. She is much more than a best fren, a soul mate to me and our friendship means so much, so much, so much to me. I'm feeling emo about this whole issue tonight. And I meant it, I can't find the right words to use. So for now, I'm going to leave it and when I feel better, I'll carry on about this issue again.
GOODNIGHT PPL.