Wednesday, March 5, 2008 11:30 PM
I don't know what exactly you want from me. You started all these and now, you're saying one thing and doing another thing. You keep telling me that I mean everything to you and you even asked my good friend to convince me about us.
For a moment, I really tot we could work things out despite our huge differences in family backgrounds. I really believed whatever things you've said or told me before. And most importantly, I really did consider putting in my all and heart to love you and forget about the past. I really wanted to try but you let me down again and again. Actions speak louder than words. All I'm asking for is to prove and show it to me instead of talking and telling me.
You do not know and understand what I want. You tot you could give me everything I wanted but what you could give, is not what I wanted. Instead of working things out, you love driving around in your mum's ferrari to the driving range, country clubs to play golf every single day and go clubbing, partying and smoke cigars with your billionaire boys every single night. This is definitely not the kind of lifestyle I'd want. I don't want to be some bimbo girl who plays golf with you every single day and a party animal at night. I know loving someone is to accept everything about him including his flaws. But I can't take all these. This is way too much and I can't even imagine the future with you.
For now, I need a break and for the time being, it's better to stop coming to me and stuffs. It's not as if you'll see these because you are obviously clubbing somewhere in town now but at least people who know us, please stop asking. It's tiring enough to deal with one person. And I thank God for not starting anything with you or I'd probably be in deep shit now.
I hate attachment to the max. Office people don't dare to talk to the both of us, simply because Jasmine's dad is the boss. It makes us feel so left out and the worst thing is only managers will talk to us. And sometimes, this is how fake the society can be. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah I'm so tired and I hope this whole thing ends soon.
Good night ppl.
P.S. I think I shouldn't have even cared in the first place.
P.S.S. Dearest sweetheart, after all these, are you still siding your good friend? You don’t have to put in any more good words for him `cause I think he doesn’t deserve it. He is not even doing anything about it!
P.S.S.S. Man United got into the final 8. :) Ronaldo scoring the only goal in Old Trafford!